I might as well die....

A possible interview with my lola's sister, Tia Becky for Jessica Soho's show, "Kapuso Mo, Jessica", is really a great opportunity and a great support for my resume if ever I enter the Media. But I referred somebody else.

University of Maryland in U.S. wants to use my published article in Ang Pahayagang Plaridel, "Biofuel...", for their research or something. They want to use it for their foreign language studies. But I declined.

I met Paul London, Jimmy Wang Yang, Idol Stevens, Ref. Charles all from WWE. I also met Batista, and got a kiss from him because I won a meet and greet.

I now have a videocam, a new cellphone, and a USB flash drive, not to mention a silver 1994 Toyota Corolla.

Looking back, I am blessed. But now, I feel like dying.

I hate my life.
I hate being stressed-out.
I hate being pressured. Pressured to do something which I tried my best to do but failed...

I'm now on the verge of nervous breakdown, as I'm really sure to fail this one major subject of mine.

My first failure...

And i hate failure!!!!


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In case you don't think that Communication Arts is hard... I'm telling you,,, it is really, really hard!!! Especially when it comes to majors... VIDPROD and INTRORE... argh...



















And i'm only in my second year....

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For Lolo Raffy

Lolo Raffy...

*a singer
*a songwriter
*an assistant director
*a father
*a brother
*a family
*a friend....

Rafael Verzosa, Tio Fael, my lolo Fael, as we call him, died last Feb. 12, 2007 (monday).

I don't know him that much but it pains me so much that i didn't know him while he was still here... I could've learned so many things from him, knowing that he was a director working with really famous people...

But I doubt that Lolo Raffy died a happy life... Lolo Raffy's first wife, Tia Yoli (sp?) and Tita Jelma(sp?), his 2nd wife have had this conflict and anger for each other for so long.... so long that when Lolo Raffy died, they even fought for the body... to whose house will be the burol...

Thanks to my lolas: Tia Linda, Tia Agnes, Tia Edna, Tia Percy, and Tio Otik; they were the ones who decided where the burol and the burial will be.... In Laspinas and Cavite...

Up to the Lolo Raffy's burol, I can feel the tension between the two wives.Tia Jelma talking badly about Tia Yoli regarding Lolo Raffy's burol--the problems they've had....

Tia Jelma, just can't hug Tia Yoli as Lolo Raffy's body is being lowered 6 feet below the ground...ARGH.... I did not cry during the last mass... I did not cry during the burol...I did not cry during the burial....

I cried everynight since Wednesday until last night for Lolo Raffy. I cried my anger for him that when everybody should be paying their respects, they are all trashtalking each other. That when the mass should be all about Lolo Fael, most who attended the mass were talking and texting--using their cellphones while the mass was going on!!!

I feel sad for Lolo Raffy...

.,.. that even when he was being buried, his two families cannot and would not reunite for him....