la lang.. trip ko lang ilagay... mahal ko kasi eh... so sad nga lang, me mahal nga lang iba....
*cry*weep*go insane*cry...

gwafu nia noh?!

oo sobra... bait pa nia...

kung pwede lang niya ko mahalin, dun niya lang malalaman kung gaano ko parin siya kamahal...

*tsktsktsk*... luvusomuch u just don't know howmuch...!!

ON THE TWENTIETH...

I saw your face on the twentieth
And knew you're the one I'll never forget
You've been the one I've dreamed about
You and me together above the clouds...
You made my dreams come true (somehow)
The signs proved it was really you!
But slowly you are running away
With someone whom I dare not say
You broke my heart, still, on the twentieth
And what happened, I thought I'll never accept
Time passes by, the pain's "quite" gone,
But there's something I ought to tell,
Now that I'm moving on...
I accepted it now,
I learned to let go
But I want you to know
I still Love you so...

summer blues...or frustrations..

argh.. takte.. matatapos na ang summer di pa ko handa...

handa sa mga dapat paghandaan tulad ng aking DEBUT.. Yes, magdedebut ako.. I finally changed my mind about not having a debut.. Eh in the first place, kaya ayaw ko magdebut noon kasi ayoko ng pormal ung tipong gowns-gowns, tas mga naka-tie ung mga kaklase tas puro ako nakaupo sa isang magarbong upuan--nag-iisa, walang kausap, walang kasama... aba, ewan yoko talaga ng ganon... si marj xa me gusto pero ako... "I DOn'T Think so...!!".. ang "BOOOORRRRIIINGG!!"...

yoko lang kasi ng ganon.. parang ganon na lang palagi... corny para sakin... kaya nag-isip ako ng mga themes... yoko ng luau... marami nang ganon, yoko ng medieval--katulad ng sa debut ni Nadine Samonte--ang baduy... sobrang boring non... parang andun ka sa kastilyo... lalalala.. wateber... nagsasayaw sa mga fiddler na mukang ewan...

Pero ang napili kong theme ay 80's!! ung bang panahon nila Aga Muhlack, William Martinez, Herbert Bautista.. BAGETS, Madonna, Boy George, The Cure, DuranDuran, Bananarama... panahong uso ang chuck teylor, ang fishnets, leggings, foot loose, crimped hair, ribbons, baston, atbp..

Actually, una kong napili ang 20's kaya lang natatakot ako sa mga taong baka hindi na sila pumunta dahil wala silang mapiling kasuotan.. mga tanga.. oo.. ganon ung mga dati kong kaklase eh.. mga namomroblema e kaya namang iresolba... tsktsktsk.. Kaya eto mas pinili ko na lang itong 1980's kasi atleast, kahit papano, may clue sila kung ano ang susuotin...

ako, akin na ung damit ni MADONNA at CYNDI LAUPER!! hahahahah... motif ko nga pla pink and black... CYNDI LAUPER na CYNDI LAUPER eh.. wahahahah...

tas cotillion ko? THRILLER ni Michael Jackson ung isasayaw... ahahahah ang saya oh diba ang exciting?! Tas ung set-up nung venue garden na maraming christmas lights, may disco ball sa gitna, at may parang strobe lights.. para mas masaya pag sayawan na..!! wahaha ang saya...!!!

Yun nga lang ala pa kong venue.. eh un ung pinakaimportanteng parte ng debut ko!! tsaka ung video coverage? ewan bahala na un.. venue muna!! tsaka damit!! para makapagpagawa na bago pa ang pasukan..

shet shet shet... takteng pressure neto.. magaaral pa ko ng driving sa may 8... hahah excited lang.. tagal ko na gusto matuto eh.. kaya lang di binibigyan ng pagkakataon... kasi sa mga extreme na nangyari sakin.. whahaha...

Pinagpapasahang Responsabilidad

"Ang Kabataan ang pag-asa ng Bayan", ayon sa ating pambansang bayaning si Dr. Jose Rizal. Sino nga bang hindi pa nakakarinig ng mga katagang iyon? Malamang tayong lahat. Musmos pa lamang tayo, iminulat na sa atin ang mga katagang iyan--mapa sa eskwelahan, sa telebisyon, sa pahayagan at mismo sa ating mga magulang at kaanak. Maraming sumasang-ayon sa pahayag ni Rizal na yan, ngunit sa ilang panahon at henerasyon na ang nakalipas, aakma pa ba sa atin ang pahayag na iyan?

Aba! Ewan ko na lang ha.. Kailan pa ba sinabi ni Rizal ang mga pahayag na iyon? Aba! Eh hindi ba't sobrang tagal na?! Hindi ko na nga maalala ang eksaktong petsa eh, at pusta ko, hindi rin matandaan ng ating mga magulang o mga lolo't lola. Basta, alam nilang ang nagsabi noon si Rizal.

Nakakairita nga lang isipin na sa sobrang tagal na ng sinabi ni Rizal, wala paring tunay na nakakaintindi nito. Ewan ko sa inyo, pero hindi ba kayo nagtataka na sa tagal nang patay si Rizal eh buhay pa ang mga ninuno natin (alam na nila ang mga katagang ito), ni hindi man lamang sila kumilos at maging "totoong" PAG-ASA ng bayan. Sa aking palagay kasi, lolo't lola ko at lolo't lola mo eh mga teenagers pa noong mga panahong iyon, o kahit pa siguro lolo ng lolo ng lolo ko... Ah ewan.. Tila kasi pinalipas lamang nila ang oras ng kanilang kabataan gayung alam naman nilang "SILA" ang pag-asa ng bayan! Tila walang katapusang pinapasa lamang nila ang kanilang "responsibilidad" sa mga susunod na henerasyon sa kanila. TAMA ba o TAMA? Kayo na bahalang sumagot, sinabi ko lamang ang aking punto...

Wala na kasing kumikilos eh, lahat ay tipong ipinapasa ang naturang "responsibilidad" sa mga anak ng anak ng anak.... sa susunod na henerasyon, gayung mga naging KABATAAN din naman sila.. at hindi rin nila ito nagampanan...

Wala paring tunay na nakakaintindi at isinasakatuparan ang mga pahayag ng ating pambansang bayani. Kailan pa nga ba magkakaroon ng pag-asa ang ating bayan kung ilang henerasyon na ang nakalipas at lalu pang lumalala ang sitwasyon ng ating bansa?!

SLiDe and SPLASH!

This post is super delayed.... again...

My "TROPA" including myself! and Carelle, Khat, Edgar, Rex and Dann went to SPLASH ISLAND last APRIL 7... I know, I know, This is super-delayed... I just want to post the picture I made as a GIFT for emkhey's 18th birthday...(SPLASH ISLAND and FOOD was their blow-out)

--->APRIL 6
I met Marj at GYMX for my supposed-to-be first day of work-out... BUT UNFORTUNATELY for me, "Kuya Tong"--the gym instructor--wasn't there.. and so I WAS SUPER BAD TRIP... Later that day... Marj and I decided to hit SM SouthMall to make the birthday card for emkhey... We went NET-SURFING, looking for pictures of miss piggy and mk, and cropping and copying and pasting using the PAINT program...(THERE"S NO PHOTOSHOP available...)... Next, we went inside National Bookstore and find some Cartolina we could use for the card... After that, straight to Marj's Pad to make the BIRTHDAY CARD that would make EMKHEY's MOUTH "WOOOOOOAAAAAAAh,....." and "LANG'ya kayo!!! Tangina niyo.. ghehehe THANK YOU!!!..."

-->APRIL 7
Woke-up early. We were supposed to meet in 7-eleven Casimiro at exactly 7:30 and I was out of the house at that time.. I THOUGHT I WAS SOOO LATE.... But then, as I arrived, I only saw Khat, Marj and Edgar... I brought the card and showed it to Edgar and Khat and Marj (again)... and they were with awe... hahaha... Nothing much happened after,, there were waiting and waitign and waiting... then MK arrived... I didn't show yet the card, but I showed her the card I made for eckah with The poem I wrote whole-heartedly in it. ONly, then, I showed her the card... hahahahahahaha The picture blew her away... hahaahah THE SMILE ON HER FACE WAS PRICELESS..... ahhahahahhaah*laughs*laughs*

This was the picture...
blew her away...hahahaha... I couldn't resist to post this... This is way too good...!!! It's just the face of mk--its color's not even with the picture... aaaargh, that's why photoshop is so darn important!!!!

okay.. so here's how it went last Saturday...

1. I called emkhey at 9am.. and I was told that she was still fast asleep... haaayy emkhey!!
2. Emkhey called me back at 10:30 saying how she was sorry for not waking up and meeting me at my pad at exactly 10am.. how she was so angry at the alarm clock for not ringing... "OKAY, OKAY, I GET IT!! ENOUGH WITH THE EXCUSES... what can I expect? IT IS STILL YOU!!! and the excuses... and I miss that! haha" THOUGHT TO MYSELF: kakamiss talaga ito nung highschool days.. na hintayan kami.. haha...
3. emkhey arrived at my pad at about 12:30, or so.. whatever... and then WE ate lunch (pashy-shy pa tong si emkhey eh.. di naman effective!!) and I did the dishes, then it's off to ZAPOTE for the roses....
4. 2pm.. we took off... 2:30 we arrived at Zapote.. and after arriving, we went straight to the FLOWER SHOP... and I tried to haggle the price and got it at 170pesos for two dozens of BLUE-DYED roses.. ooohh.. and i also owe emkhey 15pesos for the roses... nyaknyaknyaknyak!! ate "Liezel" (that was her name) told us that we have to wait at least for an hour for the roses to be blue...
5. so at 2:45, we went to SM and bought mArj a card... and also,,,, help emkhey find some "clothing.." for her celebration the next day...3:30 and we're still in SM... and I was convincing MK to hurry up coz we gotta get goin!!! or else WE WILL BE LATE...
6. after 10 minutes I finally convinced her...WAHOO... I was really in a hurry that time cuz, the 4-francis boys were already texting me, what will they be wearing? and where exactly will we meet?!! and yet i'm not dressed and the roses are still in ZAPOTE waiting to be purchased and waaaaaahhh.. STRESS...
7. we arrived 15minutes past 4 in the afternoon in Zapote and so many things happened there--the roses were still white except that there are blue spots in the petals... and for the roses to be BLUE the roses still need to be dipped in they BLUE dye!!! and we still have to buy a small pitcher for us to bring/carry the roses.... AND THE SEARCH FOR THE AFFORDABLE PITCHER STARTS NOW!!! since the flower shop is located near the public market, we searched all kinds of stores and general merchandise shops for a very affordable pitcher.. and YES!@ last! we found one.. I haggled and I haggled until the price for the pitcher went down form a 45 to a 30!! YES!! we told ourselves
8. Back at the flower shop, ate "liesel", put the dipped-in-blue-dye roses into the pitcher for us to carry...whew!! And then, we went home,...at my pad..
9. we arrived at past 5pm and to think I was meeting the boys in 7 eleven at 5:30... tsktsktsk... Letze... naman talaga.. BILIS*BILIS* Argh.. Late na ko... aus dito, aus jan.. take a bath, then fix the hair, fix the roses, fix the gift, contact the boys, dress-up do the make-up.............. aaaa.ajfaiuraiorua8uioaui*(#%^Q%$$)@#(!
10. I met with the boys in 7eleven at 6:30 and they were furius I tell you but not until i showed them the roses.. and they were AMAZED!!! (AMAZING, I thought to myself!!)... waahaha I also forgot to cut the stem of the roses, so I went inside and cut it all by myself... (AMAZING, I thought to myself*with sarcasm!!*)... Then gave the boys each a rose to give to marj...

The party that night seemed so hyper.. as I was the emcee for the 18 roses and darn it! was I so HYPER!! ... all in all.. it was a tiring day yet a happy night... for all of us.... Once that videoke microphone was free, it was time for me to sing.. hahahahahawahahaha...